Life, Love, & Laundry

Have you ever felt like you were trying to do something...like trying really hard? And someone comes along and says "Just try harder". I mean, do they even realize how hard you were trying in the first place? Am I even capable of pushing myself to try any harder?  I suppose it really comes down to what exactly we are talking about. Because trying harder can be a valid encouragement...but so often I find it is not used as encouragement but as disappointment on the other persons behalf.  Sometimes, trying harder is just not possible....or no matter how I try,...

This was written within a few days of seeking help. Just a glimpse into my mind at the time.  This is a weird feeling. I am actively suicidal, yet I feel the most peace I have felt in a long time. Now, you may wonder what exactly that means, and maybe no one but me will even understand, but I would like to try and explain, so as to help my family and friends to understand, as well as those who may be feeling the same way. It is interesting that while I feel at peace with my decision, I...

Tomorrow is Bell Let’s Talk day….I am not going to dispute whether it is a good inniative or not, but I believe that mental health issues are definitely something that should be talked openly about. Even for me…and I feel I am pretty open when it comes to my mental health, if you read back through my posts there are several that are solely about my struggles and others that mention them within the context of other things. I wrote a blog near the end of last year about how crappy the year 2022 had been for us. I did...

Is there anything that you are proud of..that really isn’t ‘proud’ worthy? I assume we all do it…I will elaborate the one I thought was so important.  I have never been a video gamer, I was never very good when anyone wanted me to play with them. I did ok at the Wii fit stuff or the sports but any of the actual games…not so much.  On my phone I would play things like Toy Blast or Candy Crush, basically games that did not require knowing how to drive or move characters around. I never played any type of open...

It’s the start of a new year…yay or nay, whichever you feel it is upon us. No one has the choice, the world keeps spinning and time keeps turning… To be completely honest, I mean when am I not? Hahaha, I do not have high hopes for this year. I am hoping/praying/wishing for one thing, and one thing only. Peace. Not world peace…hahaha cause I know that is not realistic. But just a peaceful year, ideally it would be no big surprises and a gentle year….but since that is also a tall order these days, I am more hoping for...