Life, Love, & Laundry

I wrote a few weeks ago about how Ben and I do projects very well together. Which is 100% the truth. When we do a project together, it usually goes well.  What I way lying about was the fact that because of my mental illness, when I say when someone is unwell the other person picks up the slack...I mean mostly Ben picking up the slack for me. I really hate to admit it, but I would say Ben does close to 80% of the work load around the house.  He makes all the meals, he does a bulk of...

I told you that I would write about the different diagnoses that my psychiatrist gave me when I went to him. I wrote about the first one, Bipolar....and a little about the second anxiety, which I am not sure if it was an actual diagnoses or just a side effect of the other diagnoses.....but either way, I did write about that a few weeks ago.  This next one is a big one, not one I will share a lot about....but one that I feel still needs to be shared. I have been diagnosed with Chronic PTSD, or Chronic Post Traumatic Stress...

I have a friend who just got 2 kittens...like tiny little kittens. She is so proud of those kittens, she loves having them and even loves the chaos they can create at times.  To me, that is a good pet owner, to love and be so excited about having the animal that they can hardly contain themselves when they discuss their pets. I know lots of people get complacent with their pets if they are not new....so I am not faulting you. I am just saying how nice it is to listen to her talk about her precious kittens.  We...

This morning Ben and I defrosted the freezer. It is a job we always do together. While doing it, we stole a few kisses since we were working so closely. We each have a "job" that makes it run smoothly. I use the hair dryer and get rid of the top layer, which is usually the thickest. And he pour water over the lower levels which are collected in a bucket that he dumps out. We both work with spatulas to collect and "bang" the ice in the middle of the wires to come out. Once done, I dry it...

First off, I want to say that anxiety sucks. Over my 45 years of life I have felt nervous for a lot of it…hahaha I am an inherently shy person, with low self esteem…so doing anything, old or new, gives me the ‘nerves’. But a few years ago I started getting anxiety, which is different than nervousness.  I have general anxiety (meaning I wake up with it and it stays with me during the day…), I also have social anxiety (which means I get mild panic attacks when I need to go anywhere I am not comfortable with)….and a few...