Life, Love, & Laundry — mental health

This was written within a few days of seeking help. Just a glimpse into my mind at the time.  This is a weird feeling. I am actively suicidal, yet I feel the most peace I have felt in a long time. Now, you may wonder what exactly that means, and maybe no one but me will even understand, but I would like to try and explain, so as to help my family and friends to understand, as well as those who may be feeling the same way. It is interesting that while I feel at peace with my decision, I...

Tomorrow is Bell Let’s Talk day….I am not going to dispute whether it is a good inniative or not, but I believe that mental health issues are definitely something that should be talked openly about. Even for me…and I feel I am pretty open when it comes to my mental health, if you read back through my posts there are several that are solely about my struggles and others that mention them within the context of other things. I wrote a blog near the end of last year about how crappy the year 2022 had been for us. I did...

Lisa has shared two silver linings of a really, really tough year for us.  The third one is mine to share, just as the last one was hers to share.  I also this year have gone to therapy to help deal with all that has gone on in 2022.  And I have to share my open honest journey to get here without sharing details of what has gone on in 2022.  That's a story for another time when we are both ready to share.When I was younger I had a very warped view when it came to mental health.  I...

Another silver lining from 2022. I began going to therapy. I know people have all kinds of opinions on whether therapy is helpful or not. But I will tell you, for this time in my life, it has been paramount.  I went to therapy two other times in my life, once when I was a teenager and once in my 20's, I won't get into why I went back then, but I will say the difference between those times and this time is that this time I chose to go...I actually made the call myself. My past therapy experiences were...

I thought I would take this blog to explain why I am spastic with my blog posts.  I have had several people compliment my writing style, and say they enjoy reading my blogs. One person even said I am her favourite blogger. (Awww....so sweet!). Now having this information, you might think this would make me more likely to try and be consistent and encourage me to write more. Unfortunately, my brain works opposite than "normal" when it comes to things like this.  Hearing these compliments actually makes writing blogs more stressful. If I wrote, assuming no one read or enjoyed,...