Life, Love, & Laundry

I told you that I would write about the different diagnoses that my psychiatrist gave me when I went to him. I wrote about the first one, Bipolar....and a little about the second anxiety, which I am not sure if it was an actual diagnoses or just a side effect of the other diagnoses.....but either way, I did write about that a few weeks ago.  This next one is a big one, not one I will share a lot about....but one that I feel still needs to be shared. I have been diagnosed with Chronic PTSD, or Chronic Post Traumatic Stress...

I have a friend who just got 2 kittens...like tiny little kittens. She is so proud of those kittens, she loves having them and even loves the chaos they can create at times.  To me, that is a good pet owner, to love and be so excited about having the animal that they can hardly contain themselves when they discuss their pets. I know lots of people get complacent with their pets if they are not new....so I am not faulting you. I am just saying how nice it is to listen to her talk about her precious kittens.  We...

This morning Ben and I defrosted the freezer. It is a job we always do together. While doing it, we stole a few kisses since we were working so closely. We each have a "job" that makes it run smoothly. I use the hair dryer and get rid of the top layer, which is usually the thickest. And he pour water over the lower levels which are collected in a bucket that he dumps out. We both work with spatulas to collect and "bang" the ice in the middle of the wires to come out. Once done, I dry it...

First off, I want to say that anxiety sucks. Over my 45 years of life I have felt nervous for a lot of it…hahaha I am an inherently shy person, with low self esteem…so doing anything, old or new, gives me the ‘nerves’. But a few years ago I started getting anxiety, which is different than nervousness.  I have general anxiety (meaning I wake up with it and it stays with me during the day…), I also have social anxiety (which means I get mild panic attacks when I need to go anywhere I am not comfortable with)….and a few...

I find it amazing that after 28 years together with someone we still manage to discover differences between us. Now, this one we "knew" but we didn't realize how it has affected our relationship up to this point.  I am an introvert, Ben is an extrovert. And I know they say opposites attract and that is definitely the case for us. I am quiet and shy, he is loud and outgoing. There are times this comes in handy...but other times it confuses us about each other.  Our latest conversation about this involved social media and messaging. I use social media...