Life, Love, & Laundry

This was written within a few days of seeking help. Just a glimpse into my mind at the time.  This is a weird feeling. I am actively suicidal, yet I feel the most peace I have felt in a long time. Now, you may wonder what exactly that means, and maybe no one but me will even understand, but I would like to try and explain, so as to help my family and friends to understand, as well as those who may be feeling the same way. It is interesting that while I feel at peace with my decision, I...

Tomorrow is Bell Let’s Talk day….I am not going to dispute whether it is a good inniative or not, but I believe that mental health issues are definitely something that should be talked openly about. Even for me…and I feel I am pretty open when it comes to my mental health, if you read back through my posts there are several that are solely about my struggles and others that mention them within the context of other things. I wrote a blog near the end of last year about how crappy the year 2022 had been for us. I did...

Is there anything that you are proud of..that really isn’t ‘proud’ worthy? I assume we all do it…I will elaborate the one I thought was so important.  I have never been a video gamer, I was never very good when anyone wanted me to play with them. I did ok at the Wii fit stuff or the sports but any of the actual games…not so much.  On my phone I would play things like Toy Blast or Candy Crush, basically games that did not require knowing how to drive or move characters around. I never played any type of open...

It’s the start of a new year…yay or nay, whichever you feel it is upon us. No one has the choice, the world keeps spinning and time keeps turning… To be completely honest, I mean when am I not? Hahaha, I do not have high hopes for this year. I am hoping/praying/wishing for one thing, and one thing only. Peace. Not world peace…hahaha cause I know that is not realistic. But just a peaceful year, ideally it would be no big surprises and a gentle year….but since that is also a tall order these days, I am more hoping for...

This week I am thankful for projects that work out. hahaha Now, you may think that is a very small silver lining to celebrate...and while in the grand scheme of things, you are right...but I am seriously taking ANY and ALL positives I can get this year. lol As for Christmas decorating, usually I just put up whatever decorations we have, what people have given us (yes, we have people who give us Christmas decorations almost every year...mostly my mother...hahaha) whenever I feel like for that year. Sometimes some of them stay in the boxes downstairs, other years I bring...