I wrote this blog August 9, 2020...so although it is a little outdated (and I already wrote a different blog post explaining the lack of blogs...hahahaha) I decided to share anyway. I still have nights where I do not sleep well, but thank goodness they are farther apart than they were this summer. I find life is really like a roller coaster, ups and downs, honestly, I never really know what is around the next corner....but we keep riding it, with or without enough sleep. :)
Here I lay at 3:44 am. I have no idea why all of a sudden I cannot sleep. I take sleep aids, I take Tylenol....I even tried changing scenery....sometimes I go downstairs where it is a little cooler, but tonight nothing is working.
I even had a snack at around 3, hoping that would make a difference....but here I am back in bed, but wide awake.
I would read but I don't want to wake Ben, who is sound asleep beside me, and I cannot clean because I don't want to wake anyone else in the house up. So frustrating.
I don't have trouble sleeping every single night...but it has been happening more often than not for the last few months. There are lots of things I can blame it on, but in reality I have no idea why my body has decided it does not like sleep...which is odd for me, because I do like sleep....in fact, I love sleep.
I get Restless Leg Syndrome (or as I call it crazy legs...lol) and that makes sleep impossible, no matter how tired I am. But some nights I am just not tired, and other nights my brain won't turn off. (That happens a lot...lol).
I haven't been blogging much...well at all really, since the whole world got turned upside down. I was having a very difficult time with the added stress of living in a pandemic, and just did not have the "feels" to do blogging. But now that our little corner of the world has (mostly) gotten back to some normalcy...I think it is time to try again. I have never been very good at scheduling my time, and so I like to blame my lack of blogging regularly on that....but the reality of it is, I enjoy blogging when I feel like I have something to say. And for the past few months, I really think it would just be the same thing over and over again. Life is hard in a pandemic, the kids are restless, Ben and I are restless with the added stress of no markets/festivals to 1) take up some of our time as well as 2) bring in the money. :P
But back to the lack of sleeping....I do not think that all my lack of sleep has to do with the pandemic, but maybe a good chunk of it. I also think it could be my age (perimenopause)...Ben and I have been going through some health issues as well....so we had to change the way we eat, which overall has been good for us, but I wonder if it hasn't contributed a little to the lack of sleep.
I know the hot weather has not helped, but goodness during the day I love the hot weather....I just wish it would go away at night. And trust me, I know soon enough it will be winter again, so I am not wishing away my summer. lol
It is now 4 a.m. and I have still not slept. Ugh....I wish I just had an off button, how much better/easier would that be? I have had 2 all nighters in the last few weeks, where I just laid here hoping to fall asleep....but sleep did not come.
Anyone out in internet land have any remedies for insomnia or restless legs? I would love to hear all suggestions....at this point I am willing to try almost anything.
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